_____star_diva___

2006-04-02T05:13:00.000-07:00

it's been a super long time i blogged:)
always have the same sinking feeling everyday.
dunno why:)
adam khoo's workshop is GREAT!
get to know more clearly what i wanna to be.
get to see ppl's soft side of them.
realising how important how great is our parents right now,
it's not too late! :)

kind o' mishal told me to do this survey:)

instructions
1. DO the survey.
2. WRITE down the names of 7 ppl who you want to sabo:)
3.TAG their tagboard and tell them to read here for the rules
of the game.

SEVEN qualities that i want my potential(?) boyfriend/girlfriend to have.
1. encouraging me when times get hard.
2. not to bother the amount of food i eat.
3. remember important dates.
4. treat me with respect.
5. honest with me.
6. love love love love ME!!! :)
7. understand me.

SEVEN things that scares/will scare me:
1. when * decides to leave me :(
2. blardy insects.
3. lost.
4. lost of love ones.
5. going overseas to study.
6. backstabbings.
7. unloved.

SEVEN random songs at the moment.
1. white flag.
2. so you would come.
3. because of you.
4. journey.
5. i turn to you.
6. never be replaced.
7. everlasting love.

SEVEN things i like the most.
1. my BEE:)
2. FOOD.
3. sleep.
4. write stupid stuffs.
5. LAUGH.
6. my friends.
7. music.

SEVEN important things in my bedroom.
1. pillow.
2. bolster.
3. blanket.
4. my golden box.
5. my rings.
6. fan,
7. air con!

SEVEN random facts about me.
1. crazy.
2. love to laugh.
3. i love to eat eat.
4. talk alot.
5. have 3 specs!!
6. anti- ulcer!
7. love my family and friends.

SEVEN things i plan to do before i die.
1. wanna be a BOSS!
2. married. ( haas )
3. achieve my goals.
4. wide social circle.
5. make ppl around me happy.
6. spend money on things i like.
7. eat the best food on earth ever.

SEVEN things i say the most.
1. HAPPY __DAY
2. TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY AND EVERYDAY IS A HAPPY DAY.
3. wei!
4. i'm hungry.
5. i wanna go toilet.
6. * whine
7. nevermind.

SEVEN people whom you also want them to do this.
1. ting wan ong . ong wan ting.
2. gwendelyn.
3. grace-ful.
4. ivy.
5. check check.
6. yun ting.
7. wan rong.

2006-03-10T01:53:00.000-08:00

well i'm not so stressed.
pressurised is the word.
got back results!
totally blardy shit.
failed eng.
ha ha ha!
somehow i just dun wan my parents to care about me.
so i wont feel so disappointed.
the whole point it seems like i'm studying for them not for me!
they want me to do this do that, maybe they dun exactly
say wad they mean, but what inside them is exactly wad they want
me to be.
but wad if i dun like the plans they have for me?
if they dun care about my studies.
maybe, maybe i might do better.
i was freaking so restricted!
now in this blardy generation, i have different mind set about things.
even though i'm not exactly know wad i want, but at least give me
a little freedom.
give me freedom in wadeva study style i want.
i wish they were like parents who believe in children, supporting them.
not threatening them, like if you dun do well, i so gonna confiscate your phone.
feel so restricted.
every night i was a thief.
smsing secretly, talking on the phone secretly.
is not tat illegal, right?
they thought its the best way to prevent any distractions.
oh please, as if that will help.
o levels this year, of cos i have this motivation to study no matter wad
stupid distractions.
i wish they dun treat me like one pri sku sec 1 and 2 kid.
dun compare me with my bro about last time they used to take his phone
away too.
bah!
i am not him.
anyways, kinda decided to keep my results away from them, cos i know
wad they will do, which is so blardy obvious.
cry*
just let me do wadeva i want.
step out.
:D

sat

2006-02-24T18:35:00.000-08:00

yay! finally get to blog again. after a week off the comp!
haas.
mal's party was great.
mal's mum really cooks well! even my parents thot so too:)
love the butter prawns ( the paste esp)
the chicken wings.
the sheperd's pie( dunno how to spell la!)
the almond desert thingy. (thought it was dou hua at first, wad a fool!)
shit! i din eat the fishballs. wasted.
tsk.
glad dat she likes all our presents! but i think she likes
Gwen and I gave her that pillow ya?
haas :)
after dinner went to watch final destination.
i was scared. really scared.
hated this kind of movie.
even though i din exactly watch it. use the big pillow and mal to cover myself,
i was still kinda scared.
haas.
Gwen was also scared. so i wasnt the only one.
haas.
once again, wanna thank mal for inviting me!
oh ya. if any out there who went to mal's party, will be passing you the pics
asap k?
sorry for any delay.
cheers!

saturday

2006-02-18T02:46:00.000-08:00

have been thinking recently.
about the people and i.
hmmm.
this week has been rather relaxing yet exhausting.
bla bla bla.
okie.
but to the topic.
i was thinking how fast ppl change according to situations.
as i was thinking back.
i felt so confused and guilty.
afraid that history may repeats itself.
hopefully not!
probably, i need to be sensitive towards ppl's inner feelings.
appearing not to interfere much, but was deeply affected.
my goal for this and next week : to build up stronger friendship bonds.
sorry for whoever who is concerned.

2006-02-09T22:07:00.000-08:00

cried`
not suppose to
but,
feeling terribly.
:)

friday

2006-02-09T21:58:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry dat you have to know me.
i'm sorry dat i dun understand you well.
i'm sorry dat i dun care much about you.
i'm sorry dat i treat you badly.
i'm sorry dat i have mood swings
i'm sorry you have to pacify me when i'm in a bad mood.
i'm sorry i cant make you happy.
i'm sorry i cant control my temper.
i'm sorry i cant be happily smiling always.
i'm sorry for everthing i have done.
you are not the useless one, ok?
cos I AM.
:)

2006-01-27T18:17:00.000-08:00

hellos, had a great day yesterday:)
we watched i not stupid too:)
it's a nice movie.
initially wanted to watch cheaper by
the dozen, but was glad we din,
cos gwen had 2 complimentary tics
for that movie.
i not stupid too is both comical and touching.
after the movie went to shop, went to buy cute
stuffs for sis:)
hope she will like it.
hee hee.
den after dat, mal mal had to go off early :(
so the three of us went to eat dinner at mos.
love the scallop organic rice burger.
yummy.
thinking of it just makes me drool.
shucks x)
den took a few pics at there :)
den later, we headed home.
stupid them, keep tickling me!
not funny lor!!!!! :(
but o wells, at least we are entertained.
better den i look at you, you look at me,

and not doing anithing:)
saw this little boy in the bus.
he's kinda cute.
keep staring here and there.
haas.
den when we alighted the bus,
we smiled and said goodbye.
love his eyes.
big and round and sparkling:)
haas x)

pics:)

2006-01-27T04:57:00.000-08:00

2006-01-22T03:09:00.000-08:00

2006-01-22T02:43:00.000-08:00

i miss my hol. trips :( here are just some pics x)

thursday

2005-12-29T02:30:00.000-08:00

i just realised i actually dunno many things.
and suddenly i had a sudden urge not to go for * alr next yr.
well, maybe i dun socialise much.
but even so, i dun get a chance to.
wadeva i learnt from the workshop,
it doesnt imply to anything at all.
it's just rubbish.
simply rubbish to see how the peope react afterwards :|
the people just get into their cliques and talk talk talk.
i am just invisible.
yes, i am.
i grew up in this *, but it seemed to me i am a stranger to them.
those who i really know are the ones who bother to talk cock to me.
all is a lie.
* are too not perfect people.
just ordinary people.
somehow, i thought of even to change * when i grow up :|
it's possible.
well, i guess if anione ( outside school ) read this,
this is how i picture the people in *.
sorry to say all these,
but i have been waiting for this day to say it all.

* - fill in the blanks yourself

tuesday

2005-12-06T05:07:00.000-08:00

my ulcer is freaking pain.
my ulcer is freaking big, but not as big as the last time.
there are 3 ulcer in my blardy mouth.
i cant eat my favourite fried chicken wings becos of my ulcer.
i cant talk properly at times becos of my ulcer.
my mouth practically hurts during at night, which makes me sick
to e stomach.
my ulcer is gonna make my trip miserable.
my ulcer is ruining my whole blardy life.
my ulcer is all i DONT WANT for X'MAS
somebody* is being nice and kind to suffer with me X)
yippies :)

this entry is about MY ULCER AND I.
how nice eh? :)

sunday

2005-12-04T06:19:00.000-08:00

"Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that i breath
The water i thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me"

1 month of hols had passed.
let with about 3 more weeks to term starts.
come to think of it, it really scares me that in a few
weeks time, i am gonna be SEC4.
aniway, just had my badminton camp last week.
although it's just 2 days, but really enjoyed it.
cos this camp had indeed change opinions of some
of the team members.
and den blah blah blah.
training was as usual, tough and strenuous.
but hopefully our hard work will pay off,
to meet our expectations, even though the chances
are quite slim.
sigh. but anyway, let God decides wad's best for us all.

to wan tiing---*: i have finally blogged!!! so you
better give me my present on tuesday.. wahahaha:)

thurday:)

2005-11-24T10:48:00.000-08:00

i wan a new big purse/pouch to put my digi cam, wallet and lip balm:)
christmas is drawing near, but i still cant get the festive mood in me!
1 mth of hols is soon to be gone.
shucks.
din enjoy to the fullest.
double sian.
just cant wait to get out of singapore!:)
cant wait to play with snow!
cant wait to ski!
cant wait to go SHOPPING!

~~my budget for buying x'mas present is kinda tied!!!~~
~~purple gown is nice:)~~

thursday

2005-11-17T21:00:00.001-08:00
dun wanna study physics.
dun wanna study bio.
dun wanna study chem.
dun wanna do a maths.
dun wanna do e maths.
just simply dun wanna do anything.
all i wanna is slack the whole day.
i wanna go out everyday.
i wanna watch movie everyday.
i wanna play everyday.
HA! iWISH!

wednesday

2005-11-16T05:09:00.000-08:00
~~no mood to blog. blah.~~

all i wish is everything to be PERFECT :)

monday

2005-11-14T18:40:00.000-08:00
S1ml1cITy 1s tHe w0rd :)

~~i wanna be independent.~~
thx wanting for everything, always have to trouble you
everynow and then.
this morning, had the usual mo gui training. simply
hate the footwork thingy, making my lower part
of my body sore like anithing. worse, i am not
wearing my badminton shoes! it's in the blardy locker!
sigh-
because of it, i hate to wear my converse shoes for training,
leading to blisters and more blisters. utterly disgusting!

_more than words`

sunday

2005-11-13T23:11:00.001-08:00
A BIG THANK YOU TO YOU! :)
love you:))

perfect friday

2005-10-21T22:06:00.000-07:00
i guess its been a LONG LONG LONG time since i last update my
dead blog.. aniways.. feel kinda motivated to update now.. intially we
wanted to watch corpse bride.. but at the end we watched the flight plan.
it was kinda nice, with the suspense and all.. the worst part of it was dat..
i was shivering thruout the whole movie.. hmmm.. sld have brought a thicker
jacket.. o well.. its too late to do so aniway.. den after dat we went to take neo.s
at heeren.. it turned out really nice.. its been a long time since i look nice
in the neo.s.. wakaka :)
den we ate wanton soup.. den we went off to far east plaza to do shopping!!!
well, we did at the end.. gwen and mal wanted to buy sunglasses.. but din
at the end.. haha.. den after at arnd 5 plus, we headed for home..
shall write till here.. dun wanna say the details of wad really really happen..
simply too LAZY to write... wakakak :)

perfect friday :)

thursday:)

2005-09-22T01:47:00.000-07:00
tuna fish fight sux.
tagboard down.
wahaha.
cant be bothered.

tian mi`

sunday!

2005-09-11T06:48:00.000-07:00
my tagboard is so dead!
well!
i wun care less!
tagboard is dumb!
argh!
frustrated!
haha.
tralalala` :)

friday

2005-09-09T17:23:00.000-07:00
QI SI REN LE!!
line kept cutting off!
freak sia!
make me so freaking fed-up!
dun care le lar.
i am not going to call you le lar!
boo hoo!
aniways..
instead of being angry,
i shall go make me shui gao!
hmmm..
yummy~ :)

saturday

2005-09-03T12:16:00.000-07:00
hihi.. its been a long long time since i last blog eh.
hmm... things have been going on smoothly.. Thank God for that..
guess wad? its the start of the september hols!! yippie.. lotsa things to catch up..
my beauty sleep, studies, blah blah blah..
on wednesday we had our teachers' day celebration. well no exactly lar.. my besties
together with gaya and mishi, lorraine and her best friend played captain's ball..
its been a long long time since we really play till our hearts' content.
den after dat at our 10 a.m, we had our sorta teacher and students' time i think. our
class presented a book to miss lee. in it its all our greetins for her.. hmmm.. nice!
den we had our class photo. but den not everyone of us or in it. dats kinda sad lar.
well, hopefully we can have a complete class photo..
den after dat my friend and i went to watch herbie fully loaded. intially we wanted to
watch bewitched.. but den i think the show time was kinda late so we din watch it lor..
hmmm.. i wld rate the herbie fully loaded 3/5.. the plot is simple but its kinda hmmm..
relaxing to watch in the sense lar.. not much of all bad guy thing and romance or some
sort. den afta dat we went to get my shoes!! finally!! den soon after dat i headed for home!!
home sweet home..!
den on thursday.. its teachers' day so we had no school.. three cheers for dat. i was kinda
stucked at home almost the whole day. wen my mummy miraculously let me go to buy
some stuffs.. den i met up with one of my besties to buy stuffs with me.. :)
at the end i bot the ALWAYS cd and two pairs of ankle socks...
den after dat we went to take neoprint.. well.. it turned out kinda nice..
on friday, we got baq our results slip.. the whole class was very very very shocked to noe
who were the top three in class.. 3rd: jun jie( izzit? not very sure. i forgot.. oops) 2nd:
ephraim, 1st: yong woei.. shocking eh..
ok.. i write till here.
have a great hols ahead! :))

sunday!

2005-08-14T04:00:00.000-07:00
its not raining animore... wee~~!
its not raining animore... wee~~!

I've been thinking how to step to you
And still try my best to keep my cool
And make sure that I don't break the rules
(While I try to solve a mystery)
Now it seems that everybody knows
But it seems not everybody shows
That love is the only way to go
(No, it doesn't matter what you see)
All I want is for love to live
Let's learn to give love

When he is down you should help your brother
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
(Ask what you can)
Do when you see he needs help from another
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
That's what love's all about

What love's about; What love's about
What love's about

I'll keep trying hard to help you see
Cause I really wanna' make you see
Help you understand what love can be
(If you'd only, only just believe)
Is there anyway to keep it real
While I try to tell you what I feel
And make sure you really know the deal
(So can anybody talk to me)
All I want is for love to live
Let's learn to give love

When he is down you should help your brother
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
(Ask what you can)
Do when you see he needs help from another
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
That's what love's all about

What love's about; What love's about; What love's about
What love's about

I'm calling everyone around me
Won't you please, please; Oh tell me
What can make a bond grow stronger
Love can; Love can

When he is down you should help your brother
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
(Ask what you can)
Do when you see he needs help from another
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
That's what love's all about
[repeat]

What love's about; What love's about; What love's about
Ask what you can
What love's about; What love's about; What love's about
That's what love's all about

that's what love's about.
stacie orrico-

saturday! :)

2005-08-13T23:21:00.000-07:00
you have never learnt despite my countless reminders.
i dislike people who break promises.
hais-
a leapard can never change its spots.
i totally agree with that.
i am so utterly disappointed in YOU!

sunday

2005-08-07T08:26:00.000-07:00
just one word to describe my current mood

HAPPY C:

2nd august

2005-08-02T05:04:00.000-07:00
i love this song C:

I’ve been down
Now I’m blessed
I felt a revelation comin’ around
I guess it’s right
It’s so amazing
Everytime I see you, I’m alive
You’re all I’ve got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you’re breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains form I’ll still be here
Holding you until the day I die

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you’re breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

inside your heaven- by carrie underwood

(i am a living dead.. say goodbye to me)

thursday

2005-07-28T20:13:00.000-07:00
i am sorry..
no words can expressed my feelings right now..
i feel like shit..
i feel so blardy guilty..
really sorry..
i cant complain..
cos its all my blardy fault..
i had done all my best..
well maybe not to the fullest..
but at least i did try..
but i still scuked at it..
i need miracles!!!
really need miracles..

LOSER-

2005-07-21T09:01:00.000-07:00
officially disliking chemistry..
argH!!..

aniwaes..
i am a lonely gal..
no one cares abt me..
sad..
sad..
sad..
sad..

lols..
i am a FAKE..
i have nth else better to do.. C:

wednesday

2005-07-20T20:26:00.000-07:00
i hate moles..
shit moles!!..
feeling kinda confused..
things arent going the way i wan them to be..
hope that one kind soul out there can give me a blardy sign..
feeling kinda sick and pathetic..
i wanna give up..
damn right.. i feel like giving up..

>> i am a pathetic loser
three cheers for me C:

2005-07-19T23:01:00.000-07:00
sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny,
sometimes goodbye though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me,
oh it's the hardest thingy to say,
i miss your love in every way,
so say goodbye,
but dont you cry,
because TRUE LOVE NEVER DIES C:

__ " say goodbye" __ by S Club 7
feeling kinda grey*

monday!! C:

2005-07-18T17:21:00.000-07:00
i called you today,
just to here you say,
you were not around;
the message was through,
though i wanted to,
i couldn't make a sound
i want to tell you the things that i've seen,
i want to take you where i've been,
and i wish you were here with me
(don't you know it)

i really miss you (yes i do yeah)
i really miss you (oh yeah i do)

i'm writing to say, i had a wonderful day
hanging out with my friends,
but the memory dies as the sun hits the sky,
i'm alone again,
i want to tell you the weather is fine,
when the night comes around you were on my mind,
and i wish you were here with me,

i really miss you ( yes i do yeah )
i really miss you ( i miss you )
i really miss you ( i miss you )

__ " i really miss you " by S Club 7 __ C:

sunday

2005-07-17T20:30:00.000-07:00
nth to blog abt

__ i am bored __

who am i?

2005-07-16T05:21:00.000-07:00
yupps.. feeling much better toda.. C:
went to mal's house today for meeting..
but at the end there is no meeting cos cwh was sick..
so poor thing.. haha..
just hoping that one day everything will turn out well.. C:

_____________________________

not because of who i am
but because of what you have done
not because of what i have done
but because of who you are

i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
vapor in the wind
still you hear me when i'm calling
Lord, you catch me when i'm falling
and You've told me who i am
i am Yours..

_extracted from " who am i "

pathetic life

2005-07-14T20:39:00.000-07:00
i am all "alone"..
i am pathetic..
i have no freedom.. :C

[baby i love you and i neva let you go
but if i had to boy i think dat you sld noe
all the love you make will never be erased
and i promise you dat you will never be replaced]

- extracted from " never be replaced" C:

monday

2005-07-11T20:29:00.000-07:00
today was fun!
today was fun!

yupps.. no doubt abt it.. as we didnt have afternoon classes, mal and i decided to go to ed's house! C:
i must say that her house is NICE!! and found out that her family is BIG!! you guys should have seen the family portrait pic.. *luffs
hmmm.. apology to iz, ed, sab and mal.. i din mean to scream... yuki scared the hell out of me..cuz i dun really have a soft spot for dogs. >_<
not long afta iz, ed and sab had eaten their maggie mee, we headed for ed's room.. and we sang some sp's songs.. nice! sab really has a blardy good voice!! C:
at abt 4 0'clock, we went to watch resident's evil.. and ed helped me snapped some pics of yuki.. although i dun really like dogs.. but she is cute!!

tml will be a kinda bz day fer me.. dreaded it.. haven done eng homework and maths homework.. i gonna be so blardy dead..

somebody save me___ #

i am ah huat!!! *luffs

2005-07-10T19:24:00.000-07:00
i hate liars but i am one myself
i hate backstabbers but i am one myself

life is so blardy ironic :X

___________________________________

cerella: ah gen
wanting: ah hock
me: ah huat
(wadeva~ :PPP)

its being quite a while since i last blog cos i was at my granny's house for a week : ppp

Thursday was one of my happiest day.. went to play badminton with ting and cerella..
though its only the three of us, we had lotsa fun and laughter... C:
never ever forget that day_07/06/05..

poor me.. kena bullied by ting and jia hui... 2 against 1 lors.. make me run like mad monkey like dat.... you "good"!! got one pt of time..as we were playing a sorta friendly match.. 2 against 1 ( i was the the pathetic 1 ).. ting did sometime disgusting and pervertic.. (well, not gonna tell wad she did ; PpP) and unfortunately cerella was the victim... and the way ting describe the whole incident.. the three of us kept laughing uncontrollably... rolling here and there on the floor... haha...

at arnd 6 plus we decided to call it a day... so ting and i went chomp chomp to makan.. and we decided to meet jia hui.. ting was generous as usual... treated me stingray and a sugarcane drink.. and jia hui treated me another sugarcane drink C:
had a great time catching up old times with them...

shall end here now.. cant think of aniting to write lers.. pai sae arh..

my most MUSHY entry ever *shivers*

2005-07-03T20:03:00.000-07:00
by popular demand by dat somebody *__ i shall declare my "love" jus fer tat one "special" person. . WO AI NI!! I LOVE YOU!!*shivers* dat person*_ and i had overcome many "difficulties" and "trials" together.. *(well, if you peeps dun wanna carry on reading.. is up to you.. cos i am writing dis esp. for dat person.. *goosebumps* >_<)

first of all, tat person is none other den my ATM machine.. wenever i need $, *_ will always be there to lend me.. well, i got a confession to make!! i never did return *_ baq the money.. and also.. i lost*_'s racket.. so sorry abt dat..!! thankfully, *_ "loves" me more den i "love" *_, *_ forgave me... thx alot C:

[my mind is practically blank now but die die hab to write a long entry cos of *_ lars.. daylight robbery sia!!]

hmmm.. we were not very close during sec 1 dat time.. i always haf the feeling dat *_ hates me.. den tok to me as if *_ wants to eat me up like dat.. but den.. fate "brought" us "together".. we were much closer wen we were sec 2.. *_'s attitude simply change 180 degrees towards me lors.. ever since den.. we were very very good "couple" *cough*.. and also since den.. *_ is my money lender!! haha..

we din exactly went thru difficult times lars.. but den ne told most of our secrets to each other.. correction!! i told *_ most of my secrets.. *_ only told me one or two!! how evil of *_!! fine!!:X

*_likes orange.. so i purposely chose this colour fer *_.. i am so blardy considerate rite> * luffs.. being BHB.. wadeva~~

one thing i noe wad we hab in common!! we detest the most horrible person on earth.. the "server".. noe wad i mean mars?? definition of server in my dictionary is : one who keeps on serving for hours and do nth new..

before i end.. i shall say the three words for the last time.. wahahaha... "I LOVE YOU...!!"

*goosebumps*goosebumps*goosebumps*
*puke*puke*puke*

( p.s: dis entry very long liao hohs.. dun complain arhs..!! C: )

blardy you!!

2005-06-21T20:59:00.000-07:00
who say we are not keen.... have you ever ask us wad kind of traing we want anot... you dun care abt us and expect us to win.. WTH... that person just stand down dere serve serve.. tell us go do footwork... we do wrong strokes also din correct us.. how do you expect to learn.. dammit!! dun change dun change lars... i personally feel sianz going le lors.. last time arhs.. die die also wan go fer traing... now leiz.. give me money i also DUNWAN.. but i still go.. why? i like e spot.. but wad you do is jus talk cock... puleez... put yourself in our shoes.. if you wanna dis to work out... be organised lors...

sec 1: i remember the very first day of selection my first encounter with my ex coach.. well i shant say abt his appearance * luff.. but wad i can see is dat.. he is very enthu selecting the potential ones .. i was rather tense..luckily all went well fer me... i got in the team!! *grinz
we had our traing every tues and thurs at 4 ?? not very sure of the time... pai sae.. time to time.. i can see myself improving every training... he is very orgainised and very alert to spot our mistakes.. he never never give up hope on us!! he understood us, helped us, laughed with us... miss those days!! sigh... once we had this chinese new year reunion dinner wib the bad. girls... datz one of the best moments i have ever ever had... afta dat we went to the part and chit chat till abt 9 plus bahs...

sec 2: our worst nightmare!! he left us fer a betta job, higher pay.. well, i wun say he was kinda selfish, just being prac. we din hab coach fer awhile.. all we did was to hab traing on our own... another sad new was dat mr * intended not to be the teacher in charge... the sec 2 and sec 3 bad. gals were kinda upset over it.. and den mr * came in as the ic.. i shant say wad he did... i am so turned off.. these two peeps who had made a diff in me jus left like dat... imagine dat kind of feeling being lost and helpless in a way.. the dream of being national top 16 jus vanished jus like dat *snap.. no one is dere to correct and help us.. dammit!!

sec 3: our interschool compe. was one of our best moments although we din win.. wasted!! our ex coach cheered us on.. he was like the pillar of the team... although we lost.. he was still proud of us cos we did our best!!.. during that period the new ic.. was blardy good to us.. cared fer us... to wad i think... he was just being such a hypo.. afta e compe. everyting jus went baq to square one.. new coach came in... its our rival sku coach... wadeva... i thot i was able to change my opinion of him but no!! he jus one of a kind who tok more den we train... out of 2 hrs.. he took abt 45 mins or even more den dat toking crap!! he just crap crap crap.. din show us wad we did wrong... recently.. that mr * said we are not keen.. we are not keen? ha! i ask you baq the same qn.. are you keen in helping us? i dun think so.. wad u expect frm the 4 of us.. to win? wad the!! jus plainly selfish... yes.. of cos we do want to win.. but can you plz open your eyes and looked at our traing wad did the coach do? jus serve serve.. tok tok.. scold scold.. did he correct our strokes... wad i can see is dat... we do not really improve..... think abt fer goodness sake

* i wash my hands off this blardy toot thing!!
p.s dis is a blardy long entry... pai sae : ppp

8 jUne

2005-06-08T17:54:00.000-07:00
gwendelyn
mallory
wanrong
hui shan
pru
cai ling
wanting
yun lu
ginette
jj
glen
lao pa
alex
ephraim
samuel
tavis
hafiz
diliang
wee wee
gay gay
jie lun
etc..
thx fer remembering my birthday and the prezzies you gave me...!! :]]

2005-06-07T18:58:00.000-07:00

WORST DAYOF MOILIFE!!DUNWANNATOKABTIT!!DUNASKMEANITING!!

tueSday

2005-05-24T22:55:00.000-07:00
to a friend: dun be sad wors... be strong kz... will be there wen you nid a shoulder.. tho my shoulder is not bery comfy.. hehx.. tho i dunno how it feels but i understand how you felt... cuz i can imagine one day it mite happen to me too.. bt hopefully it wun be too soon... i muz say dat u are bery strong wors... if i were you... wah... i gonna flood e whole earth... hmmm.. tsunami the second.. choy.. jus now you msg me... wo really bery gan dong wors.. no one actually make me so gan dong b4 wors... ai si ni... thx alot fer being dere 4 me.. i now too lost fer words... b4 i end this.. jus wanna say... THANK YOU!!! :]]

mondAy....

2005-05-22T12:43:00.001-07:00
a ghost of you and me by bbmak rox... tho it was kinda and old song i think... but it really sounds nice to me... hehx....
nth to blog abt... shall leave it the nxt time bahxx.. ps

friday!! ]]

2005-05-20T18:47:00.000-07:00
jus came back.... hab a fun time out wib xm, kt, and cai si... stupid cai si.. bully me... you good lars... you shall die on tuesday... wahaha.... went to meet them at 1.10.. den went heeren dere to take neoprint... den lata went fast east plaza dere to buy bd present fer their fren... and i bot a new pencil case... wahaha... same brand as moi wallet...jus simply love it... my arm bery suan... toopid person go and elbow me... kaoz... but den since you apologised.. i shall fergib you... x]]..
shall write till here... my arm is damn suan... argh..

_______________ i am not alone*

friday the 13th is ober!!

2005-05-14T00:16:00.000-07:00
_mixed feelings
_dunno who to believe
_can someone out dere tell me who can i trust
_are friends reliable
_are dey jus hyprcrites.. pretend to be ok wib you but actually not ok wib you
_plz tell me the whole truth... of wad really happen..
_i wanna be freed!!!!

chemistry and geog sux.... gonna flunk my mid yr... hope fully not... hehx.. pray* hard* hard*..
jus 4 more daes of exam... and i am free frm studying fer the time being... hee ]]

ps: sorry gwen... i wasnt my usual self...

save me...

2005-05-10T20:29:00.000-07:00
i am sho in love wib the "i love you" thingy... sorry if its sounds bery irritatin.. but try to be bear wib it kz... hars... i am now rather hooked to "save me" n "little superhero girl" by corrinne may... listen to these songs... its rather meaningful.. today fish help me to get out of trouble... thank you so much if not i gonna be killed wen i go home... hee... today was rather fun... played captain's ball wib e2 and e4... hee... the galz play rather good wors... bery excitin but tiring... social studies.. geog and chem exams are coming soon... shikies... i haben really really study... dun hab the time and dun hab the mood bahs... cant wait fer xams to be ober... den i can go chill out without any worries... hars...
if i were to be distant to you... i apologise to you... i need to time to recover frm all those stuffs... maybe i am petty or wad but i really cannot bring myself to ferget everything and be like last time like dat... however... i will still treat you as friends... if nid any help i will be glad to help you... :]]

[[ little superhero girl.....
## i feel like a little girl
trying to conquer the whole wide world
everybody wants a piece of me
and i dun noe where to turn
i ve got work piled up to my head
all i want to do is jump into bed
and wash away all my troubles with lemonade

2005-05-06T22:06:00.000-07:00
not sure whether i sld feel relieve or hurt... hehx... but anyway or another... dis cld be a lesson learnt... not to trust ppl easily... like my lao pa said... hehx... i am jus too lost fer words ritez now... jus wished dat my ear wun be dat pain tml.. it really hurts biggy time... hmmm... i really dun mind you all write bad stuffs abt me and telling ppl how irritating how bad am i... cos human nature is suppose to be evil??... i not trying to act like a dao fang person... but seriously wad can i do ritez??... anywaes dis jus a misunderstanding whether you wanna believe it or not... i shant force you to understand...

____________groaning in pain* ear hurts biggy time

05.05.05

2005-05-05T15:47:00.000-07:00
kaes... today was kinda fun... went to _mish's house den went heartland mall to take neos... was kinda fun... took twice wib the same machine... hars.. shant really describe the whole thingy... jus simply cant put it in words... wahaha... finally it is raining afta dose sticky and humid weather... heatwaves sux>>yt... sounds familiar mars..<<..
ending here... :)

and btw... GOOD LUCK FER YOU MID YR... PPL!!

___________i'm bored-ed*

HAppY laBouR day

2005-05-01T18:19:00.000-07:00
jus woke up... woke up frm my fairyland... hehx... not at all perfect and wonderful.. but at least i was away frm the xams pressure and all... i quite obsessed wib the tong hua song... my goodness... and whose fault is dis... its g***!.. always sing dis song... not really always lars... now yw was sorta hooked on to it... am i rite?
hehx... kz.. today is labour day... and i thot today is also MOTHER'S DAY!! haha... luckily i din gib my mom a card today... if not bery ma lu... hehxx...
looking at the sky ritez now... i think its gonna rain soon bahs... great... no more feeling hot + humid... simply hate that kind of stickyness... doubt no one will like it... hee...
its gonna be 1 mth and i week to my birthday... whoopee.... simply cant wait to hab my hands on all those stuffs i wanted.. heh heh... not dat i am hinting anything... hee hee..
and before i end HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JOANNA... :)

2005-04-28T20:10:00.000-07:00
wen i heard abt ytd's incident... i sorta reflected abt wad i did in the past... but i still dun understand why you dun like us... i mean like... i neba did anything wrong to you, didnt i...? you actually dun hab to scold us in your blog tho its perfect legal to do so...o'well... anywaes i wont take it to heart... jus treat it a reflection... but still hope dat it wun really affect our friendship.. and also hope dat you wun jia xin jia yi towards us.. ^_
to my dearest sis(you noe who u are) : even if the world is against you... everyone is ignoring ya.. insulting you even tho you are totally innocent... i will always be there fer you if you need a listening ear.. cos i experienced it b4.. and it sux biggy time.. sho cheer up kaes... dun make one person spoil your whole mood... jus think of the happiest timeof your life to make you ferget all the "sufferings" you had "suffered" kaes... muacks..
today was fun... dun hab chinese lesson... went to watch the grp01 vs grp 04 debate.... it was kinda surprising that grp04 won... haha... anyway.. kEEp It uP wors.. hehx..

i am tired and bored....
___fadin away*

fLaG - dAy

2005-04-27T17:53:00.001-07:00
it's another hot and humid day... today was rather fun overall... went to do the flag-day thingy wib yw yt gwen and mal.... and we managed to collect more than we expected... i jus found out dat... dere are people out dere who are generous in donating money.. THANKS PEOPLE!! however dere are some irritating ppl who tried to play a fool lars... donate 5 cent!! jus becos dey wanna a sweet!? how pathetic... but anyway is betta den none tho... mr * was rather unlucky today.... g.e.m went to stop him and asked fer donations... and he gave dunno wad stupid lame excuse say he got class and so on... and den finally he went out of the staffroom... den afta abt half an hour he went back to the staffroom.. upon seeing us again.. he went to escape... my goodness... sho scared fer wad.... den afta we went round askin teachers fer donation... we decided to go the the pe staff room to ask the *chers to donate..... and you noe wad... dey are damn xiao qi... keep saying dunno wad "no money" blah blah... conclusion: pe teachers are bUDGet + sELfiSH...herh... at least the rest of the teachers like miss lee, mr rahmat, miss teo, mr lionel lim are generous... wahaha...and as i was saying... gwen spotted mr * hiding at mr y's table... but no matter how hard he tried to avoid us... no matter how hard he tried to be invisible... nothing can make him un-noticeable... haha.. he ISH sho SUAY.... wahaha... but of cos in the end he still din donate... herhs... nbm... tml g.e.m.y.y gonna make him donate... i dun care.. wahaha

monday blues..

2005-04-25T21:04:00.001-07:00
i seriously loathe monday... today was kinda humid.. and it really spoilt everyone's mood i guess... haiz... kinda stressed out... so many tests, so little time... haiz.... guess i sure-flunk my chem test.... failure sia... why cant ms lee set a less diff paper so tat i can pass fer the FIRST time?.. hars...
failure is the route to success... i dun really believe in dat.. cuz i failed too many times... and i can neba succeed.... i am a pathetic freako... save me...
since i dun really hab anything to blog abt today i shall tok abt the kinds of ppl i detest the most...
and of cos the top of the list(1) is girlfriend and boyfriend stealer... if you are one of them.. get lost... cos this kind of people is the most despicable people... they are selfish.. horrible harlots....
top(2): people who keep naggin at me... cant you jus stop your naggin... i noe wad to do... its not as if i am still a primary kid??
top(3):that sec 1 guy.... cant you jus stop you *nacking.. you are plain irritating... i noe you wanna get my attention... but oh plz i am not interested in you.. cos you are SHORT and IRRTATIN + NO RESPECT....
>>guess thats all bahs... i will *top up more nxt time....<<

ulcers = sux!

2005-04-24T18:48:00.000-07:00
i honestly HATE ulcers... my ulcers had jus recently recovered and now dey are BACK again.... and it is twice as painful as before... ulcers= sux biggy time... everytime wen i got ulcer....is not dat small small kind de... its bery huge in size... my friends can testify dis pt... wen can i ever be free frm ulcers... sobz... it really irritating... tml is chem test.... hopefully i wun fail again... i jus feel dat i am the most pathetic sec 3 gal in this world(i think).. no matter how hard i study... no matter how many daes i studied... i still cant even pass !! pathetic huh!!.. think i gonna flunk my maths test.. i jus simply dun understand those graph thingy... the line segment arhs.. den the length of ab... the equation.. blah blah... i sux at it big time... den on wednesday i got two tests... one is bio and another one is geog map readin... bio sux.... wahaha... i am now bery sleepy and hot.... needa bathe soon... wahaha.... i am now waitng fer the june hols so that i can sleep late and wake up late.... whoopey... and also able to stay away frm books fer a period of time... hehxx...

jus another saturday

2005-04-23T21:14:00.000-07:00
finally hab my new layout all thx to TAN YUN TING... if not fer her my blog will be dead.. hars....
i think i gettin fatter... had been eatin alot ever since i moved in to stay wib my grandparents... their two meals is equivalent to my one meal... hars... den today ate one and a half plate of noodles... den at 11 plus went out wib my cuz to eat dim sum at crystal jade restaurant... i ate till my stomach was bloated!! den at 4 went to compass point to meet fish tank.. gwen.. mal and weng hee fer the project thingy... and decided to eat at pizza hut.... not only dat wors... we went to star bucks fer *evening* tea.... honestly speakin... the cheesecake and the potato there really sux biggy time... my advice to ppl out dere reading my blog... dun try those cake.. salad.. try it at your own risk... i simply cant believe dat exams are coming in like 2 weeks time?? time really passes real fast.... haiz... wad more can i say... sec 3 life ish really REALLY bz..... nth but studying studying and more studying.... well at least i got wonderful friends arnd me to help me sometimes get away frm dis world of BOOKS.... hee... and also in abt 1 mth and a few weeks.... my birthday is coming... kinda excited but kinda sad too... cos as you grow older and older, you will face many challenges ahead of you... haben really started my revision yet... i am like sho sho dead... if i flunk my mid year... i gonna be a roasted chicken.... haiz... wish i was a sec 2 again... slackin and *fooling* arnd... hee...
think i sld end here bahz.. shall continue again wen i gotta da time..

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8 jUne

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save me...

05.05.05

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ulcers = sux!

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